HarryPotter6

So I hella spam text people yesterday about the end of August Roadtrip to Cali. As far as I'm concerened; only few people replied. Few is plenty for me :) The following 'few' people being; Wutty, Ysaly, Jeron, Shellie and Vern. Those peoples bringing their own crowd, yadaimeans? Bay Area, here we fuckin' come!

Anyways, yesterday I get a text from Ysaly saying that he wants to double date cause he needs a girl or whatever the fuck. So I hook him up and he hooks me up with his homeboy Eddie. We went to Alki with Ysaly, Mackara and Eddie but on the way there, we saw this hella clean ass JDM fucking clean off the shiiiiit clean assss sucker &raced. I didn't like the way Ysaly drove. Stupid cunt. (I didn't drive) We finally got to Alki, everyone had to fucking piss and it was just eugh ! We finally decided to go park at viewpoint and meet up w/ Mackara's cousins &talked about cars, blahblahblah, Cars aren't that much of an appeal to me. We stayed there for a good minute and I got cold so we dipped to go watch a movie w/ my homegirls, Sophia, Eunice &Raezel. Then some more people showed up like Hares and Nick. We ended up watching Harry Potter and the Half Blooded Prince.

FUCK THAT FUCKING MOVIE ! It was a disgrace. The graphics, dialogue, etc was great (of course) but the whole story line compared to the book was shit. Even if I had not compared it to the book, there was no beginning, middle and end comparison that I had hoped for. It was the ugliest movie of all six. If they fuck up the last two movies of Harry Potter, I will be totally bitter. &Yess ! I said the last two because apparently the director is cutting the 7th book into two different movies. Part one comes in 2010 and the second part comes in 2011. They make more money that way too ! Bastards LOL. But on a serious note, this movie was a really really disappointing movie, if anybody asked.

&Yeahh, me and my sister got bored so we webcammed, <3>

Enjoy it ! & Please don't jokc. Kay? Thankkks. :)

Anyways, so this Sunday, PISTA mo'fuckers ! I'll see you and you and you and you ;) Most definitely. It's at Seward Park, 10am to 7pm. Be there or be square (Ew, corny) Spot me ! I'm this really short korean girl that's just EVERYWHERE. Hahahaa. I can't wait to see my loveliesss, it's gonna be hella dope.

My Boyfriend, Sher Her. Love found on July042k9,
I never thought or ever found myself putting myself in a position where I'd feel like this way again. Well, "again" is an understatement; its more like "FOR A LONG TIME". I didn't know what he was to me for the longest time but I know he's a big part of my life now. I can't fall asleep until he calls me. I don't ever wake up in the right mood until he wakes me up in the morning. My days go by so much slower without his phone call. Whats even better than his phone calls are the rare hugs and kisses I get from him. Distance makes the heart grow fonder. I trust him, I love him, I don't need anybody else in my life to tell me shit will be okay if he has already done and told me that. I anticipate that what he and I will go through will be hard but for the time being, I believe it's worth it. A step at a time baby.

Bestfriend

I was reading through my yearbooks of my last four years of high school and oh my effing god. I MISS MY BESTFRIEND, MARCO RAPHAEL ESMUNDO PAMPARO. There's no one else that could make me laugh like the way he does. I never had any disappointment in him but towards the end of the school year when he forgot to put my name next to him for seating for graduation. LOL :) But man, I be hella missing him. Nobody else comes close. That fool didn't have to know lot about me to know what to do with me on a bad day, yadaimeans? No matter what, he was there for me. Did what he had to do, to be there for me.

On a good day, he was there to share laughs with me and on a bad day, he was there to lend a shoulder. It's all gravy. From start year one till now. I' never forget how grateful I am to have him as my bestfriend. To even say he was a part of my life is gratifying to me. I just wish... he stayed here in the states a lil' longer for us to fallback on what we call memories. He left too soon for the Phillippinesss.

Sometimes we forget how fast life passes by us. & Maybe thats why we often times make mistakes without thinking much of it.

When I look back into the mistakes I've made, I've got to admit; each and every single one of those times, I never knew what hit me. I got caught up.

Speeding Tickets

I fucked up really bad. Two unpaid speeding tickets and suspended license. I'm in a heap of debt. My boss doesn't fucking give me hours that I need to pay off to my parents and shit. Everything is crumbling down to this. Life sucks.

I know what I have to do to get out of this mess and by the end of it all, I'll be able to say 'It was a mistake, just don't make it again' but still in my heart, it weights heavy. Life isn't perfect, it never was to begin with but I can't help but notice that its all becoming a crunch. Slowly faltering around the idea that I don't believe in God. There is no way I can escape his wrath or mercy as long as my parents believe in the sole foundation and idea that God is the reason why I can never go wrong. And I hate to admit this but they're right. Every time I dig myself a deeper hole, doing what I love (Which isn't always right), I get caught up with the moment and in the end, with my parents. But honestly, life sucks right now.

Life lesson learned - DO NOT PROCRASTINATE W/ THE LAW.

This man who approached me first has kindled a small candle light. This man who has set my soul free has none but been kind to me in giving me everything I want. This man who I have given forth my everything is far from my touch. This man i was willing to wait despite of the troubles, is willing to move on yet give me the smallest things I desire. This man is to leave...but what can I say to that? I love everything about this man-his compassion for music, his desire to help, his strength to carry on, his bravery in approaching the unspeakable, his essence that makes a crowd want to reach out...EVERY DAMN THING, I want this man for, I can't seem to grasp. I know my words speak to him, I know my smile gets to him but he is merely a man. His sexual desire to feel a women is still there. That I must admit is only flaw. Yet my heart endures for the way he talks to me, the way his words soothes my inner most raging waves of emotions...and peaks curiosity of how a women should grow without a need of a man's touch. That is unconditional but this man who has it all, does not yet realize that and the unbreakable emotional ties with me is breaking him down and doing nothing more but putting stress on his dear heart.

So what am I to do with this man who isn't willing to commit because his heart desires so much more of what we call a physical needs in that he needs a women in his arms to reassure his emotional scope...but his emotions are unbreakable and tied to a women who is too far from him to even gather his thoughts in trying to wait to see if it works. Am I to be a friend and ignore the emotional ties he feels for me and I to him or am I to just stay out of his life and end what he calls misery and stress to his dear heart.

The truth and honest part of my heart says, I can't do without him cause as a women, I would be willing to have him there to love and moved by the power of his words that could soothe the ends of my every desire but yet, I do wish to be held by him...So I rather have him stay but yet...not just as a friend but as my own man. Things will get better...I promised this him and I know this, he just has to be patient and wait ... cause I'm that worth it to him right? If I could just prove to myself that much then this would be so much easier to handle.

This man...knows how to break a women down.