A Simple Dedication.

This man who approached me first has kindled a small candle light. This man who has set my soul free has none but been kind to me in giving me everything I want. This man who I have given forth my everything is far from my touch. This man i was willing to wait despite of the troubles, is willing to move on yet give me the smallest things I desire. This man is to leave...but what can I say to that? I love everything about this man-his compassion for music, his desire to help, his strength to carry on, his bravery in approaching the unspeakable, his essence that makes a crowd want to reach out...EVERY DAMN THING, I want this man for, I can't seem to grasp. I know my words speak to him, I know my smile gets to him but he is merely a man. His sexual desire to feel a women is still there. That I must admit is only flaw. Yet my heart endures for the way he talks to me, the way his words soothes my inner most raging waves of emotions...and peaks curiosity of how a women should grow without a need of a man's touch. That is unconditional but this man who has it all, does not yet realize that and the unbreakable emotional ties with me is breaking him down and doing nothing more but putting stress on his dear heart.

So what am I to do with this man who isn't willing to commit because his heart desires so much more of what we call a physical needs in that he needs a women in his arms to reassure his emotional scope...but his emotions are unbreakable and tied to a women who is too far from him to even gather his thoughts in trying to wait to see if it works. Am I to be a friend and ignore the emotional ties he feels for me and I to him or am I to just stay out of his life and end what he calls misery and stress to his dear heart.

The truth and honest part of my heart says, I can't do without him cause as a women, I would be willing to have him there to love and moved by the power of his words that could soothe the ends of my every desire but yet, I do wish to be held by him...So I rather have him stay but yet...not just as a friend but as my own man. Things will get better...I promised this him and I know this, he just has to be patient and wait ... cause I'm that worth it to him right? If I could just prove to myself that much then this would be so much easier to handle.

This man...knows how to break a women down.